I am Awake. Now what?


I had a Spiritual Awakening last year.  It slowly approached; I had no idea the tsunami-like impact it would have on me and, without warning, everything came crashing down.  My world was radically turned upside down.  My old self died and a new version of me emerged as I swallowed a newfound understanding of my own existence and the true nature of eternity. Chances are, if you are not sure if you have had a Spiritual Awakening, you probably haven’t had one yet.  You may understand some of the concepts on an intellectual level (as I did) but it’s completely different when you experience the tumultuous impact of such deep Knowing.  It is my belief that if you are reading this right now, you are either already Awake or you are on the shore watching the wave approach.  Let it come to you in its own time though; it’s not something you want to rush into.

I know now that while my body will crumble and turned to dust, my soul will never die. Prior to my Awakening, I thought my death was irrelevant and it seemed way too farfetched that I could ever have any real, tangible understanding of it before the time came. I ‘believed’ in an afterlife but I still always, deep down carried it as a question. There is no longer any doubt that I will live on.  This is not a question now.  It is a knowing.  This life is very temporary; it’s twelve seconds in 12,000 years of my Soul’s existence (roughly).  The good news is, I’m not the only one who has had an Awakening.   Thankfully, after it happened, I stumbled on (or more likely, I was sent) many companions who have shown me that Waking Up is actually somewhat common, albeit no one is on the nightly news discussing the details.

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Okay so we are Awake, now what?  If you are like me (and others I have talked to who have been through this experience) you will emerge wondering where your ‘old self’ fits in, if at all.   Many people who have Woken Up have a strong impulse to quit their jobs and follow a path that honors only things connected to the Divine.  Like, all of a sudden, becoming a yoga instructor is the only thing that really makes sense. Sound familiar?  Perhaps everything you once held dear is cast in a different light.  Your ego driven desires no longer seem relevant and your passions for say… graphic design, fashion, movies, cars or even science feel uncomfortably incongruous.  Material interests are seen as distractions when you are aware of the Grand scheme of things. Then the TV gets turned off, permanently.  Life only makes sense alongside Truths like the value of connecting, meditating, nature and being in the moment.  Once you are Awake, you are also no longer seeking answers.  You don’t have questions.  Questions seem silly especially since you know intuitively that the answers are all within.  And besides, the answers to all the questions are: it’s everything, it’s up and down, it’s right and wrong, it’s in and out, it’s yes and no, it’s black and white, it’s one in the same… we are all the one, we are all the same.

Ironically, you may feel lonely after you Wake Up; I sure did.  Seeking out community is really important because this transition can feel very isolating.  Find people who speak your new language, you know…indigo child, chakras, synchronicity, etc. 😉  It has been my experience that Waking Up is a process of experiencing a series of ends and beginnings. With that in mind, I have found that it is important to trust the new normal: constant change.  It’s best to settle into the continual sensation of recalibration and surround yourself with conscious, Awake friends.  The good news is that there are actually quite a few of us. (I mean, have you seen Russell Brand on YouTube lately?)  Adyashanti’s The End of Your World is also the perfect gift you can give your newborn self.  I fell in love with this book because it simply offers a hand to hold.

Wherever you are, always remember you are exactly where you are meant to be, and you are a guided soul.

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